Just read sober mummy's post and thought I'd say hello. I'm still here!
Second time around the block now. I am over a year and I am like meh! Done that already, you mean I have to do it again, but without the fanfare and pat on the back of being sober?!
Eg I went to the annual fancy lunch with hats, and toasts, and Lord Mayor of London and all the things yesterday. LAST year I was all LOOK AT ME FUCKERS I CAN DO THIS SOBER, HELL YESSSS!!!! Well done me etc etc etc.
Now it's like oh I STILL have to do this sober? Ok right, look at me, anyone? Anyone?
The abnormal is becoming normal.
I think year two is about dealing with THAT.
All the same shit, but sober.
Quitting drink makes nothing go away. In fact it makes everything rush up at you in your face, it won't fuck the fuck off, it sticks around now you don't have your booze stick to beat it away.
On balance I like dealing with all this and feeling stronger and wiser (!), but when I feel low or fragile I hate it and want my mummy and a cuddle and all that.
Now I'm off. I have to go and be sober somewhere, again! FFS.